I miss the feeling of writing in this blog.
I was going through my old posts and it's so cool because now I know exactly which day I bought my crease brush from mac and which days I went to GSA or not and how I felt about the drumline.
I would read a post and feel cold because I wrote it in december. I could almost smell the room I wrote it in!
am i the only one who gets that?
I definitely miss Brian Teng a lot...
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Thursday, July 17, 2008
LJ crosspost
I've been thinking about a lot lately. And by lately I mean today.
Chronologically, I thought about Adira, my dream about Logan, and ultra-indie web magazine, The book Everything Is Illuminated, and the movie Blindness.
1. Adira
I've been in love with her since 7th grade. Maybe not always conciously, but enough to the point that if I see her, or anything or anyone that reminds me of her, my heart aches like a mofo. If she was mute, I'd still love her voice. If she was paralyzed, I'd still love the way she threw back her head when she laughs. If she was bald, I'd still love her hair. I have this burning desire to feel like I'm dying and hold her in my arms. I'd cross the street without a crosswalk for her. I'd do drugs for her. I'd climb a rock wall for her. I'd kill a spider for her. I'd probably do anything to get her to care about me the same way.
2. the Logan dream
I woke up after a crazy dream. For the past few nights I've been having these dreams where so much that I want is packed into them. I don't remember much from the other nights, but last night, it was that Logan and I were madly in love (maybe I got the love theme because I was thinking about Adira until I fell asleep?). We also had sex everywhere. And if it didn't happen in the dream, then I woke up thinking it had. In the shower, her house, my moms house, my dads house, in a car. And then we were lying in a car and there was an awkward silence, she said something about the superbowl, and I woke up. Sheesh. Just when I was getting over her, I go and have a dream like that. I should be upset that she didn't comment back for the past few weeks, but I wasn't angry, I just sort of ignored it. Whatever.
3. Indie webmag
I was lying in bed recalling that I never really found a review for cool edit pro 2.0, but I used it anyways. I thought about writing one and publishing it online, and then I thought maybe I'd review other things too, like indie artists, because frankly, the only people who are going to care about a music producing program thing would be indie artists. and then I thought I could make a bunch of pages on nice paper and decorate them, and then scan them to the computer, then put them on adobe, and then put up a link somewhere to download it, and then maybe make it a monthly thing. Then I thought I couldn't do it alone so I'd recruit other people. But then I was too lazy to get out of bed and go to the computer to see if anyone would make an indie web magazine with me. So I nixed the whole idea and decided that if anyone needed a cool edit pro 2.0 review, I'd just tell them it was okay.
4. Everything is Illuminated
I'd seen the movie and now I'm reading the book. The emotions are far too intense in that book, so I think it'd be impossible to read all in one sitting. Jonathan Safran Foer is a little bit of a literary genius because in the book Alex says that the other character's story can make him melancholy and distressed and angry and happy and illuminated all within a single passage and that's pretty much how I feel about it. Plus, he's an English pioneer because he can write as if he truly is a Ukrainian guy who recently learned English. It's absolutely fantastic and it makes me think of the language in a new way.
5. Blindness
They're making one of my favorite books into a movie. I can't say that I'm too excited because it's first and foremost Portuguese and I didn't hear any bit of a Portuguese accent in the trailer. But maybe I'll surprise myself and see it anyways.
Chronologically, I thought about Adira, my dream about Logan, and ultra-indie web magazine, The book Everything Is Illuminated, and the movie Blindness.
1. Adira
I've been in love with her since 7th grade. Maybe not always conciously, but enough to the point that if I see her, or anything or anyone that reminds me of her, my heart aches like a mofo. If she was mute, I'd still love her voice. If she was paralyzed, I'd still love the way she threw back her head when she laughs. If she was bald, I'd still love her hair. I have this burning desire to feel like I'm dying and hold her in my arms. I'd cross the street without a crosswalk for her. I'd do drugs for her. I'd climb a rock wall for her. I'd kill a spider for her. I'd probably do anything to get her to care about me the same way.
2. the Logan dream
I woke up after a crazy dream. For the past few nights I've been having these dreams where so much that I want is packed into them. I don't remember much from the other nights, but last night, it was that Logan and I were madly in love (maybe I got the love theme because I was thinking about Adira until I fell asleep?). We also had sex everywhere. And if it didn't happen in the dream, then I woke up thinking it had. In the shower, her house, my moms house, my dads house, in a car. And then we were lying in a car and there was an awkward silence, she said something about the superbowl, and I woke up. Sheesh. Just when I was getting over her, I go and have a dream like that. I should be upset that she didn't comment back for the past few weeks, but I wasn't angry, I just sort of ignored it. Whatever.
3. Indie webmag
I was lying in bed recalling that I never really found a review for cool edit pro 2.0, but I used it anyways. I thought about writing one and publishing it online, and then I thought maybe I'd review other things too, like indie artists, because frankly, the only people who are going to care about a music producing program thing would be indie artists. and then I thought I could make a bunch of pages on nice paper and decorate them, and then scan them to the computer, then put them on adobe, and then put up a link somewhere to download it, and then maybe make it a monthly thing. Then I thought I couldn't do it alone so I'd recruit other people. But then I was too lazy to get out of bed and go to the computer to see if anyone would make an indie web magazine with me. So I nixed the whole idea and decided that if anyone needed a cool edit pro 2.0 review, I'd just tell them it was okay.
4. Everything is Illuminated
I'd seen the movie and now I'm reading the book. The emotions are far too intense in that book, so I think it'd be impossible to read all in one sitting. Jonathan Safran Foer is a little bit of a literary genius because in the book Alex says that the other character's story can make him melancholy and distressed and angry and happy and illuminated all within a single passage and that's pretty much how I feel about it. Plus, he's an English pioneer because he can write as if he truly is a Ukrainian guy who recently learned English. It's absolutely fantastic and it makes me think of the language in a new way.
5. Blindness
They're making one of my favorite books into a movie. I can't say that I'm too excited because it's first and foremost Portuguese and I didn't hear any bit of a Portuguese accent in the trailer. But maybe I'll surprise myself and see it anyways.
Friday, July 11, 2008
JAB
So, I used to post here more than I post in my Livejournal, but I guess everything changed.
I like it here though. It's all so familiar.
But mostly I stopped by to say I missed you.
And that some things never change, because I caught myself saying "in other news" over at LJ but I changed it to "on a brighter note" because it didn't really feel right.
Blogger.
You fed my first blog addiction.
And for that I love you foreverevereverever. ever.
Though my posts may be sparse, none are without complete ardor.
And if you don't know what ardor means, go look it up in the dictionary that I (lovingly) added a few months ago to the sidebar.
I like it here though. It's all so familiar.
But mostly I stopped by to say I missed you.
And that some things never change, because I caught myself saying "in other news" over at LJ but I changed it to "on a brighter note" because it didn't really feel right.
Blogger.
You fed my first blog addiction.
And for that I love you foreverevereverever. ever.
Though my posts may be sparse, none are without complete ardor.
And if you don't know what ardor means, go look it up in the dictionary that I (lovingly) added a few months ago to the sidebar.
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Chex mix.
EDIT: I had a list up of things that pissed me off about someone, but I don't know what got into me. So I got rid of it.
Torie's sister is in labor.
For all I know, Ethan could be born now, actually.
I'd like to know.
I miss M.U.N.
You can read my... soliloquy on my livejournal.
I want LaHonda, CGB, and Y&G MLC to get here now.
Torie's sister is in labor.
For all I know, Ethan could be born now, actually.
I'd like to know.
I miss M.U.N.
You can read my... soliloquy on my livejournal.
I want LaHonda, CGB, and Y&G MLC to get here now.
Sunday, May 4, 2008
goodnight moon.
I have so much to say but no way to say it.
a friend of mine was so fucking stupid last night, she nearly died.
It took me a while to decide if I'm glad she's alive or pissed at her for being DELIBERATELY stupid.
Jesus.
sometimes I regret not being corrupted, but it's times like now I'm glad I'm fucking sober.
I keep running the story through my head and knowing how different it would be if I was there just kills me.
a friend of mine was so fucking stupid last night, she nearly died.
It took me a while to decide if I'm glad she's alive or pissed at her for being DELIBERATELY stupid.
Jesus.
sometimes I regret not being corrupted, but it's times like now I'm glad I'm fucking sober.
I keep running the story through my head and knowing how different it would be if I was there just kills me.
Saturday, May 3, 2008
Thursday, May 1, 2008
twenty fucking three.
it's hard to rock out to a catchy beat and blog at the same time, but so far I'm managing.
I actually read the school newspaper and saw the article about josh chou's beats. And now I'm listening to him. And it's really cool stuff. I'd definitely rap over that. except I sound too girly. and I don't feel like asking him. and my raps aren't G4NG$T4H enough. but you should check him out here.
so anywaysssss.
Today was super easy. We had to attend today, but they only technically had to keep us for about to hours, so they spent about 15 minutes chatting about summer school and some yearbook party and then they popped zoolander in the movie machine. ZOOLANDER. my favorite movie. On the easiest day of school. sick. After that, Anne and Shelby and I went to Shelby's place. I cooked them some delicious mac and cheese and then we put the number 23 on. The rest of our afternoon frolics are classified information, but if you give me a rose, I might tell you. then I came back home and cheeled. watched some Monk, of course. because I do that... every day. Both episodes. And when my routine is interrupted, I get cranky.
My cat is in a good mood, which I like.
She's shedding, which I don't like.
I actually read the school newspaper and saw the article about josh chou's beats. And now I'm listening to him. And it's really cool stuff. I'd definitely rap over that. except I sound too girly. and I don't feel like asking him. and my raps aren't G4NG$T4H enough. but you should check him out here.
so anywaysssss.
Today was super easy. We had to attend today, but they only technically had to keep us for about to hours, so they spent about 15 minutes chatting about summer school and some yearbook party and then they popped zoolander in the movie machine. ZOOLANDER. my favorite movie. On the easiest day of school. sick. After that, Anne and Shelby and I went to Shelby's place. I cooked them some delicious mac and cheese and then we put the number 23 on. The rest of our afternoon frolics are classified information, but if you give me a rose, I might tell you. then I came back home and cheeled. watched some Monk, of course. because I do that... every day. Both episodes. And when my routine is interrupted, I get cranky.
My cat is in a good mood, which I like.
She's shedding, which I don't like.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
bitchwooddddd.
Me. and a liar. Everything doctorIMsick says is a lie. and I went along with it. for now...
soapsucker omg: hey m00fieee.
doctorIMsick: Does she really still go by m00f? (:
soapsucker omg: kind of haha
soapsucker omg: do you still go my clipp? or is it traye now?
soapsucker omg: *by
doctorIMsick: Traye's the real deal's name, Clipp's my sexy s/n-type name. lmao.
doctorIMsick: holy shit.
doctorIMsick: its been so long.
doctorIMsick: fuck, how is she?
doctorIMsick: );
doctorIMsick: how old is she now?
soapsucker omg: she's good
soapsucker omg: 14 now haha
doctorIMsick: ...
doctorIMsick: she was fourteen 3 years ago?
soapsucker omg: maybe she lied
doctorIMsick: or was it 2.
doctorIMsick: ;0
soapsucker omg: everyone lies on the internet
doctorIMsick: Mhh.
soapsucker omg: what, you never lied? hahaha
doctorIMsick: I feel liek a sex offender.
doctorIMsick: lmao.
doctorIMsick: D;
soapsucker omg: sex offender, huh?
doctorIMsick: 19 now.
soapsucker omg: cool cool
doctorIMsick: nahh sonn.
soapsucker omg: it doesn't matter, you haven't talked to her for hella days anyways
doctorIMsick: im still in a slump.
doctorIMsick: i havent even gone to college yet.
doctorIMsick: fuck, im a loser. ;/
soapsucker omg: por que? still dating that girl in the funny farm?
doctorIMsick: fuck nahh
doctorIMsick: she got out though.
doctorIMsick: shes alright.
doctorIMsick: we talk sometimes.
doctorIMsick: not often.
doctorIMsick: she moved a good distance away.
soapsucker omg: oh well
soapsucker omg: it happens
doctorIMsick: mm.
doctorIMsick: i dont care much
doctorIMsick: she turned out to be a reaaaall pain in the ass in the end
soapsucker omg: I'll bet...
soapsucker omg: what was she in for?
doctorIMsick: she 'tried to kill herself'.
soapsucker omg: ...
soapsucker omg: she did it for attention?
doctorIMsick: ehh she was pretty fucked up
doctorIMsick: mgihtve just been her
doctorIMsick: ;P
doctorIMsick: but yeh.
doctorIMsick: that too.
soapsucker omg: so what else are you up to?
soapsucker omg: still friends with that girl? alana or something.
doctorIMsick: nahh.
doctorIMsick: well.
doctorIMsick: yeah?
doctorIMsick: but
doctorIMsick: we dont hang out at all really.
doctorIMsick: we kinda went seperate ways.
doctorIMsick: she went to a different school, etc.
soapsucker omg: oh. right.
soapsucker omg: what about that other guy?
doctorIMsick: stash?!11
soapsucker omg: si
doctorIMsick: fuck, he was the man. lmao
doctorIMsick: he left too.
doctorIMsick: a while back.
doctorIMsick: seems like everyones all set to grow up.
doctorIMsick: and im not.
soapsucker omg: wow. no offense. but that makes you kind of a loser
doctorIMsick: nah sonn.
doctorIMsick: it doesnt matter?
doctorIMsick: you make new friends
doctorIMsick: I have a decent job, and im still pretty good at guitar
doctorIMsick: ill go to school soon, im actually planning on it in august.
soapsucker omg: that's good
soapsucker omg: what school?
doctorIMsick: well, seeing as im pretty positive i want to take psychology, i chose Northeast technical insitute. lol
doctorIMsick: its nothing fancy
doctorIMsick: its in a town about 2 hours away from rme right now.
soapsucker omg: where do you live again?
doctorIMsick: MA.
soapsucker omg: oh yeah
soapsucker omg: now I remember
soapsucker omg: I forgot a lot about you
soapsucker omg: because you're never on.
doctorIMsick: yeah.
soapsucker omg: why not?
doctorIMsick: well its pointless. i can drive, so i just go out to see my friends instead. lol
soapsucker omg: gotcha
soapsucker omg: sorry i'm like interrogating you
soapsucker omg: it's not meant to sound that way.
doctorIMsick: nah its cool.
doctorIMsick: if im uncomfortable, i wont answer. ;P
soapsucker omg: so if I ask you about your sex life...?
soapsucker omg: hahaha just kidding
doctorIMsick: my sexlife is fiiine.
doctorIMsick: not this month though.
doctorIMsick: but it will be soonh.
doctorIMsick: *soon.
soapsucker omg: just kidding normally doesn't require an answer
soapsucker omg: but okay
doctorIMsick: well i didnt want you to think im a 19 yr old virgin. (;
soapsucker omg: I know
soapsucker omg: this may or may not be answerable
soapsucker omg: are you straight?
soapsucker omg: because I think I remember something about
doctorIMsick: ive been bi in the past
soapsucker omg: liking a boy
doctorIMsick: but now im full on straightttt.
soapsucker omg: ...
soapsucker omg: how do you just change like that
doctorIMsick: i was a cofnused little 16 yr old boy?
soapsucker omg: i'm hella jealous
soapsucker omg: Sooo sick of being called a dyke.
doctorIMsick: my little sis is bi.
doctorIMsick: and shes not like
doctorIMsick: trendy bi.
doctorIMsick: shes like.
doctorIMsick: picky, but bi.
doctorIMsick: i can tell.
soapsucker omg: ahhh I can't stand boys
soapsucker omg: no offense
doctorIMsick: yeah.
doctorIMsick: most of the time we suck.
doctorIMsick: (;
soapsucker omg: no fucking kidding
soapsucker omg: so do you ever talk to her anymore?
doctorIMsick: nahh
doctorIMsick: thats why i asked how she was
soapsucker omg: oh yeah, I do recall now
soapsucker omg: too bad, she's way cool
doctorIMsick: i know.
doctorIMsick: or assume.
soapsucker omg: you should strike up a convo
soapsucker omg: do you have a myspace?
soapsucker omg: or facebook?
doctorIMsick: nahhh.
doctorIMsick: i dont use IM.
doctorIMsick: so their even more pointless.
soapsucker omg: too badddd
soapsucker omg: didn't you meet her on like
soapsucker omg: neo?
soapsucker omg: XD
doctorIMsick: yahhh.
soapsucker omg: very "confused 16 year old boy" of you.
doctorIMsick: Mmmm.
doctorIMsick: shut up.
doctorIMsick: neo pets was fun.
doctorIMsick: before it ogt all gay.
soapsucker omg: it still is
doctorIMsick: *got
soapsucker omg: once you get past the ads and shit
soapsucker omg: like I still log on occasionally to play destructo
doctorIMsick: ahh
doctorIMsick: send me money and ill make an account
doctorIMsick: ;P
soapsucker omg: psh fuck no
doctorIMsick: fine you whore.
soapsucker omg: you're the one with the job, hombre
doctorIMsick: so?
doctorIMsick: fuck, im not wasting my money on neopets.
doctorIMsick: when i could be buying GTA.
soapsucker omg: you don't have to pay to make an account, dork
doctorIMsick: yeah its the money i want.
soapsucker omg: i'm raising my eyebrows at you.
soapsucker omg: just use your old account
soapsucker omg: and I'll challenge you at destructo
soapsucker omg: =]
doctorIMsick: i cant remember shit that old
doctorIMsick: lmao.
doctorIMsick: i could hardly log into this.
soapsucker omg: so then
soapsucker omg: why did you?
doctorIMsick: because i was boredddd. christ your nosey.
soapsucker omg: ...
soapsucker omg: i was only wondering
doctorIMsick: k
doctorIMsick: i chopped my hair all off.
doctorIMsick: lmao.
soapsucker omg: oh yeah?
soapsucker omg: send me a picture
doctorIMsick: mmh.
doctorIMsick: fine.
doctorIMsick: but its not the best.
doctorIMsick: :/
doctorIMsick: its from when i broke my nose.
soapsucker omg: haha how?
doctorIMsick: around here we have these giant department stores called BJs
doctorIMsick: and i was high.
doctorIMsick: and i was running around.
doctorIMsick: and i smashed face first into a metal shelf.
doctorIMsick: stfu, i dont wanan hear it.
soapsucker omg: you're cool
soapsucker omg: lol
doctorIMsick: do you wanna see the 'cute' one, so says my friend Kaila, which i find really kinda funny looking, or the not so good one, but im kinda normal?
doctorIMsick: both have the broken nose though.
doctorIMsick: i have like
doctorIMsick: nothing/
soapsucker omg: just send me both them
soapsucker omg: of them
doctorIMsick: i sold my camera. D;
doctorIMsick: if you fucking say im ugly, ill smack you hoe.
doctorIMsick: aiight?
doctorIMsick: lmao.
doctorIMsick: gangsta g.
doctorIMsick: ;P
soapsucker omg: too bad you can't actually smack me
doctorIMsick: fuck you.
doctorIMsick: http://i25.tinypic.com/11v1yj6.jpg
soapsucker omg: haha lemme see the other one :'
soapsucker omg: I mean :]
doctorIMsick: fine
doctorIMsick: hold on.
soapsucker omg: fankyou
doctorIMsick: this one isnt exactly 'hottie' material either. ;P
doctorIMsick: and my hairs grown about an inch and a half or so since this was taken
doctorIMsick: plus my nose has healed
doctorIMsick: :p
soapsucker omg: okay
doctorIMsick: http://i29.tinypic.com/5apaq9.jpg
soapsucker omg: which one did kaila like?
doctorIMsick: the little one
doctorIMsick: with my fucking retarded pout.
doctorIMsick: shes so gay.
doctorIMsick: lmao.
soapsucker omg: so when was this?
doctorIMsick: 2 monthes ago i think? maybe a little more
soapsucker omg: you don't look 19.
doctorIMsick: sorry?
soapsucker omg: i'm just saying
soapsucker omg: you look way young lol
doctorIMsick: Mmm.
doctorIMsick: thus why I have an ID. (;
soapsucker omg: haha I guessss
doctorIMsick: its the short hair.
doctorIMsick: trust me
doctorIMsick: ;/
doctorIMsick: it was way long
doctorIMsick: for a while.
doctorIMsick: and people say with my shorter hair i look younger.
soapsucker omg: i'm going to be honest, i don't remember what you look like at all.
soapsucker omg: or looked like
doctorIMsick: ...second thought.
doctorIMsick: i looked even younger with long hair.
doctorIMsick: ;/
soapsucker omg: hahaha
soapsucker omg: send me one with long hair XD
doctorIMsick: alright.
doctorIMsick: but its like.
doctorIMsick: ATLEAST
doctorIMsick: a year old.
doctorIMsick: and then thats all you get.
soapsucker omg: psh fine
doctorIMsick: http://i25.tinypic.com/213iqz8.jpg
doctorIMsick: i had it even longer than that around last october.
doctorIMsick: haha.
doctorIMsick: no comment?
doctorIMsick: lmao
doctorIMsick: am i that hideous.
doctorIMsick: ;P
soapsucker omg: haha no sorry
soapsucker omg: she actually just called
soapsucker omg: so i'm a tiny bit distracted
doctorIMsick: ill go.
doctorIMsick: ;x
soapsucker omg: nah don't
doctorIMsick: i have work early anyway.
soapsucker omg: where?
soapsucker omg: we're off the phone now btw
doctorIMsick: you'll laugh at me.
doctorIMsick: ;P
soapsucker omg: no I won'tttttt
soapsucker omg: i mean, I will
soapsucker omg: but not in a mean way
doctorIMsick: im the manager at a dennys resteraunt. lmao.
doctorIMsick: but its not terrible.
doctorIMsick: i mean christ.
doctorIMsick: i could be just a wroker.
doctorIMsick: *worker
doctorIMsick: so stfu.
soapsucker omg: i know dude
doctorIMsick: i hafta go though
soapsucker omg: do you have to wear an apron?
doctorIMsick: im fucking tiiired.
doctorIMsick: fuck you.
doctorIMsick: this ist he last time i sign on here.
doctorIMsick: ;/
soapsucker omg: aw I'm sorry
soapsucker omg: hahaha
soapsucker omg: go sleep
doctorIMsick: damn right your sorry.
doctorIMsick: ;P
doctorIMsick: kiss my feet, bitch.
doctorIMsick: night.
soapsucker omg: night hoe
doctorIMsick signed off at 8:18:51 PM.
soapsucker omg: hey m00fieee.
doctorIMsick: Does she really still go by m00f? (:
soapsucker omg: kind of haha
soapsucker omg: do you still go my clipp? or is it traye now?
soapsucker omg: *by
doctorIMsick: Traye's the real deal's name, Clipp's my sexy s/n-type name. lmao.
doctorIMsick: holy shit.
doctorIMsick: its been so long.
doctorIMsick: fuck, how is she?
doctorIMsick: );
doctorIMsick: how old is she now?
soapsucker omg: she's good
soapsucker omg: 14 now haha
doctorIMsick: ...
doctorIMsick: she was fourteen 3 years ago?
soapsucker omg: maybe she lied
doctorIMsick: or was it 2.
doctorIMsick: ;0
soapsucker omg: everyone lies on the internet
doctorIMsick: Mhh.
soapsucker omg: what, you never lied? hahaha
doctorIMsick: I feel liek a sex offender.
doctorIMsick: lmao.
doctorIMsick: D;
soapsucker omg: sex offender, huh?
doctorIMsick: 19 now.
soapsucker omg: cool cool
doctorIMsick: nahh sonn.
soapsucker omg: it doesn't matter, you haven't talked to her for hella days anyways
doctorIMsick: im still in a slump.
doctorIMsick: i havent even gone to college yet.
doctorIMsick: fuck, im a loser. ;/
soapsucker omg: por que? still dating that girl in the funny farm?
doctorIMsick: fuck nahh
doctorIMsick: she got out though.
doctorIMsick: shes alright.
doctorIMsick: we talk sometimes.
doctorIMsick: not often.
doctorIMsick: she moved a good distance away.
soapsucker omg: oh well
soapsucker omg: it happens
doctorIMsick: mm.
doctorIMsick: i dont care much
doctorIMsick: she turned out to be a reaaaall pain in the ass in the end
soapsucker omg: I'll bet...
soapsucker omg: what was she in for?
doctorIMsick: she 'tried to kill herself'.
soapsucker omg: ...
soapsucker omg: she did it for attention?
doctorIMsick: ehh she was pretty fucked up
doctorIMsick: mgihtve just been her
doctorIMsick: ;P
doctorIMsick: but yeh.
doctorIMsick: that too.
soapsucker omg: so what else are you up to?
soapsucker omg: still friends with that girl? alana or something.
doctorIMsick: nahh.
doctorIMsick: well.
doctorIMsick: yeah?
doctorIMsick: but
doctorIMsick: we dont hang out at all really.
doctorIMsick: we kinda went seperate ways.
doctorIMsick: she went to a different school, etc.
soapsucker omg: oh. right.
soapsucker omg: what about that other guy?
doctorIMsick: stash?!11
soapsucker omg: si
doctorIMsick: fuck, he was the man. lmao
doctorIMsick: he left too.
doctorIMsick: a while back.
doctorIMsick: seems like everyones all set to grow up.
doctorIMsick: and im not.
soapsucker omg: wow. no offense. but that makes you kind of a loser
doctorIMsick: nah sonn.
doctorIMsick: it doesnt matter?
doctorIMsick: you make new friends
doctorIMsick: I have a decent job, and im still pretty good at guitar
doctorIMsick: ill go to school soon, im actually planning on it in august.
soapsucker omg: that's good
soapsucker omg: what school?
doctorIMsick: well, seeing as im pretty positive i want to take psychology, i chose Northeast technical insitute. lol
doctorIMsick: its nothing fancy
doctorIMsick: its in a town about 2 hours away from rme right now.
soapsucker omg: where do you live again?
doctorIMsick: MA.
soapsucker omg: oh yeah
soapsucker omg: now I remember
soapsucker omg: I forgot a lot about you
soapsucker omg: because you're never on.
doctorIMsick: yeah.
soapsucker omg: why not?
doctorIMsick: well its pointless. i can drive, so i just go out to see my friends instead. lol
soapsucker omg: gotcha
soapsucker omg: sorry i'm like interrogating you
soapsucker omg: it's not meant to sound that way.
doctorIMsick: nah its cool.
doctorIMsick: if im uncomfortable, i wont answer. ;P
soapsucker omg: so if I ask you about your sex life...?
soapsucker omg: hahaha just kidding
doctorIMsick: my sexlife is fiiine.
doctorIMsick: not this month though.
doctorIMsick: but it will be soonh.
doctorIMsick: *soon.
soapsucker omg: just kidding normally doesn't require an answer
soapsucker omg: but okay
doctorIMsick: well i didnt want you to think im a 19 yr old virgin. (;
soapsucker omg: I know
soapsucker omg: this may or may not be answerable
soapsucker omg: are you straight?
soapsucker omg: because I think I remember something about
doctorIMsick: ive been bi in the past
soapsucker omg: liking a boy
doctorIMsick: but now im full on straightttt.
soapsucker omg: ...
soapsucker omg: how do you just change like that
doctorIMsick: i was a cofnused little 16 yr old boy?
soapsucker omg: i'm hella jealous
soapsucker omg: Sooo sick of being called a dyke.
doctorIMsick: my little sis is bi.
doctorIMsick: and shes not like
doctorIMsick: trendy bi.
doctorIMsick: shes like.
doctorIMsick: picky, but bi.
doctorIMsick: i can tell.
soapsucker omg: ahhh I can't stand boys
soapsucker omg: no offense
doctorIMsick: yeah.
doctorIMsick: most of the time we suck.
doctorIMsick: (;
soapsucker omg: no fucking kidding
soapsucker omg: so do you ever talk to her anymore?
doctorIMsick: nahh
doctorIMsick: thats why i asked how she was
soapsucker omg: oh yeah, I do recall now
soapsucker omg: too bad, she's way cool
doctorIMsick: i know.
doctorIMsick: or assume.
soapsucker omg: you should strike up a convo
soapsucker omg: do you have a myspace?
soapsucker omg: or facebook?
doctorIMsick: nahhh.
doctorIMsick: i dont use IM.
doctorIMsick: so their even more pointless.
soapsucker omg: too badddd
soapsucker omg: didn't you meet her on like
soapsucker omg: neo?
soapsucker omg: XD
doctorIMsick: yahhh.
soapsucker omg: very "confused 16 year old boy" of you.
doctorIMsick: Mmmm.
doctorIMsick: shut up.
doctorIMsick: neo pets was fun.
doctorIMsick: before it ogt all gay.
soapsucker omg: it still is
doctorIMsick: *got
soapsucker omg: once you get past the ads and shit
soapsucker omg: like I still log on occasionally to play destructo
doctorIMsick: ahh
doctorIMsick: send me money and ill make an account
doctorIMsick: ;P
soapsucker omg: psh fuck no
doctorIMsick: fine you whore.
soapsucker omg: you're the one with the job, hombre
doctorIMsick: so?
doctorIMsick: fuck, im not wasting my money on neopets.
doctorIMsick: when i could be buying GTA.
soapsucker omg: you don't have to pay to make an account, dork
doctorIMsick: yeah its the money i want.
soapsucker omg: i'm raising my eyebrows at you.
soapsucker omg: just use your old account
soapsucker omg: and I'll challenge you at destructo
soapsucker omg: =]
doctorIMsick: i cant remember shit that old
doctorIMsick: lmao.
doctorIMsick: i could hardly log into this.
soapsucker omg: so then
soapsucker omg: why did you?
doctorIMsick: because i was boredddd. christ your nosey.
soapsucker omg: ...
soapsucker omg: i was only wondering
doctorIMsick: k
doctorIMsick: i chopped my hair all off.
doctorIMsick: lmao.
soapsucker omg: oh yeah?
soapsucker omg: send me a picture
doctorIMsick: mmh.
doctorIMsick: fine.
doctorIMsick: but its not the best.
doctorIMsick: :/
doctorIMsick: its from when i broke my nose.
soapsucker omg: haha how?
doctorIMsick: around here we have these giant department stores called BJs
doctorIMsick: and i was high.
doctorIMsick: and i was running around.
doctorIMsick: and i smashed face first into a metal shelf.
doctorIMsick: stfu, i dont wanan hear it.
soapsucker omg: you're cool
soapsucker omg: lol
doctorIMsick: do you wanna see the 'cute' one, so says my friend Kaila, which i find really kinda funny looking, or the not so good one, but im kinda normal?
doctorIMsick: both have the broken nose though.
doctorIMsick: i have like
doctorIMsick: nothing/
soapsucker omg: just send me both them
soapsucker omg: of them
doctorIMsick: i sold my camera. D;
doctorIMsick: if you fucking say im ugly, ill smack you hoe.
doctorIMsick: aiight?
doctorIMsick: lmao.
doctorIMsick: gangsta g.
doctorIMsick: ;P
soapsucker omg: too bad you can't actually smack me
doctorIMsick: fuck you.
doctorIMsick: http://i25.tinypic.com/11v1yj6.jpg
soapsucker omg: haha lemme see the other one :'
soapsucker omg: I mean :]
doctorIMsick: fine
doctorIMsick: hold on.
soapsucker omg: fankyou
doctorIMsick: this one isnt exactly 'hottie' material either. ;P
doctorIMsick: and my hairs grown about an inch and a half or so since this was taken
doctorIMsick: plus my nose has healed
doctorIMsick: :p
soapsucker omg: okay
doctorIMsick: http://i29.tinypic.com/5apaq9.jpg
soapsucker omg: which one did kaila like?
doctorIMsick: the little one
doctorIMsick: with my fucking retarded pout.
doctorIMsick: shes so gay.
doctorIMsick: lmao.
soapsucker omg: so when was this?
doctorIMsick: 2 monthes ago i think? maybe a little more
soapsucker omg: you don't look 19.
doctorIMsick: sorry?
soapsucker omg: i'm just saying
soapsucker omg: you look way young lol
doctorIMsick: Mmm.
doctorIMsick: thus why I have an ID. (;
soapsucker omg: haha I guessss
doctorIMsick: its the short hair.
doctorIMsick: trust me
doctorIMsick: ;/
doctorIMsick: it was way long
doctorIMsick: for a while.
doctorIMsick: and people say with my shorter hair i look younger.
soapsucker omg: i'm going to be honest, i don't remember what you look like at all.
soapsucker omg: or looked like
doctorIMsick: ...second thought.
doctorIMsick: i looked even younger with long hair.
doctorIMsick: ;/
soapsucker omg: hahaha
soapsucker omg: send me one with long hair XD
doctorIMsick: alright.
doctorIMsick: but its like.
doctorIMsick: ATLEAST
doctorIMsick: a year old.
doctorIMsick: and then thats all you get.
soapsucker omg: psh fine
doctorIMsick: http://i25.tinypic.com/213iqz8.jpg
doctorIMsick: i had it even longer than that around last october.
doctorIMsick: haha.
doctorIMsick: no comment?
doctorIMsick: lmao
doctorIMsick: am i that hideous.
doctorIMsick: ;P
soapsucker omg: haha no sorry
soapsucker omg: she actually just called
soapsucker omg: so i'm a tiny bit distracted
doctorIMsick: ill go.
doctorIMsick: ;x
soapsucker omg: nah don't
doctorIMsick: i have work early anyway.
soapsucker omg: where?
soapsucker omg: we're off the phone now btw
doctorIMsick: you'll laugh at me.
doctorIMsick: ;P
soapsucker omg: no I won'tttttt
soapsucker omg: i mean, I will
soapsucker omg: but not in a mean way
doctorIMsick: im the manager at a dennys resteraunt. lmao.
doctorIMsick: but its not terrible.
doctorIMsick: i mean christ.
doctorIMsick: i could be just a wroker.
doctorIMsick: *worker
doctorIMsick: so stfu.
soapsucker omg: i know dude
doctorIMsick: i hafta go though
soapsucker omg: do you have to wear an apron?
doctorIMsick: im fucking tiiired.
doctorIMsick: fuck you.
doctorIMsick: this ist he last time i sign on here.
doctorIMsick: ;/
soapsucker omg: aw I'm sorry
soapsucker omg: hahaha
soapsucker omg: go sleep
doctorIMsick: damn right your sorry.
doctorIMsick: ;P
doctorIMsick: kiss my feet, bitch.
doctorIMsick: night.
soapsucker omg: night hoe
doctorIMsick signed off at 8:18:51 PM.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Ally stickers.
I wish every day was Earth day.
And the day of silence, although it's been a pain in the BOOTY to plan, should be swell.
And the day of silence, although it's been a pain in the BOOTY to plan, should be swell.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
sleep it all away.
"Something is changing inside of me..."
and I think it's true.
Recently I've been knitting a lot more and all I want is to clean up and vacuum and write raps.
Weirdest combination ever.
Worse than David's pickle and mustard sandwich.
Ironically, I'm doodling David right now.
But only because I've already vacuumed and written a rap and my knitting is in the other room.
I just feel so peculiar...
and I think it's true.
Recently I've been knitting a lot more and all I want is to clean up and vacuum and write raps.
Weirdest combination ever.
Worse than David's pickle and mustard sandwich.
Ironically, I'm doodling David right now.
But only because I've already vacuumed and written a rap and my knitting is in the other room.
I just feel so peculiar...
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Don't deconstruct.
I cleaned my room today.
It took about 5 hours.
I listened to Rilo Kileys Takeoffs and Landings album at least 5 times, and my Chaplain CD once or twice.
If you've ever been inside my bedroom before, you may recall it being difficult to walk through, with a desk with junk piled sky high, a chair you can't even sit in because it's covered with sweatshirts, a corner of more junk, stupid drawings and epic photographs on the walls. Among other things. Only the photos remain.
I started with the corner. I filled a garbage bag with bullshit and found 7 unused gift cards. I found my stuffed cat that I got when I was 4. I (lovingly) threw her into the washing machine.
The desk was next. That took a really long time. I first had to go through the three drawers and get rid of the crap in there. Then I moved on to the mount rainier of the 408. I got rid of a lot of useless crap, and some useful stuff that just took up too much space. I called my brother in and we moved my desk perpendicular to where it was before. It's now up against the wall instead of sticking out, and it's a lot more space efficient. I intend to use it for sewing, not homework.
Bookshelf. It wasn't too hard, I just got rid of the stuff that wasn't books, and cleared off the top. Threw away some of that junk. It was very dusty. I found lots of stuff to sell at a garage sale, too.
I moved on to the top of my dresser. lots of useless old stuff, so that all went to ze trashbags. I found maybe 200 mardi gras bead strings. Not kidding. If anyone has any idea what to do with them, please tell me, because I'm totally stumped.
I vacuumed the room next, and then organized everything else. You know, all the little stuff. It looks a lot nicer now, and way less embarrassing. It'll probably last a few days...
I'd like to share with you the easiest recipe for Nachos ever. And they're tasty.
you will need your favorite:
- Chips
- Canned chili
- Mexican blend of shredded cheeses
(or cheddar)
- Salsa
1. Put a layer of chips on a big platter.
2. Cover with some cheese.
3. Then as much chili as you want.
4. Then more cheese!
5. Microwave for about 2 and a half minutes.
6. Dollop some salsa on.
7. munchmunchmunch
NOTE: I hate sour cream. I mean, I don't really HATE it, because I don't actually hate anything, but I don't like it. If you like it, you can put some on too with the salsa. And also, you can use any kind of chili. Vegetarian, turkey, bean, beef, whatever. It doesn't even have to be canned. :]
+ ew. school tomorrow!
It took about 5 hours.
I listened to Rilo Kileys Takeoffs and Landings album at least 5 times, and my Chaplain CD once or twice.
If you've ever been inside my bedroom before, you may recall it being difficult to walk through, with a desk with junk piled sky high, a chair you can't even sit in because it's covered with sweatshirts, a corner of more junk, stupid drawings and epic photographs on the walls. Among other things. Only the photos remain.
I started with the corner. I filled a garbage bag with bullshit and found 7 unused gift cards. I found my stuffed cat that I got when I was 4. I (lovingly) threw her into the washing machine.
The desk was next. That took a really long time. I first had to go through the three drawers and get rid of the crap in there. Then I moved on to the mount rainier of the 408. I got rid of a lot of useless crap, and some useful stuff that just took up too much space. I called my brother in and we moved my desk perpendicular to where it was before. It's now up against the wall instead of sticking out, and it's a lot more space efficient. I intend to use it for sewing, not homework.
Bookshelf. It wasn't too hard, I just got rid of the stuff that wasn't books, and cleared off the top. Threw away some of that junk. It was very dusty. I found lots of stuff to sell at a garage sale, too.
I moved on to the top of my dresser. lots of useless old stuff, so that all went to ze trashbags. I found maybe 200 mardi gras bead strings. Not kidding. If anyone has any idea what to do with them, please tell me, because I'm totally stumped.
I vacuumed the room next, and then organized everything else. You know, all the little stuff. It looks a lot nicer now, and way less embarrassing. It'll probably last a few days...
I'd like to share with you the easiest recipe for Nachos ever. And they're tasty.
you will need your favorite:
- Chips
- Canned chili
- Mexican blend of shredded cheeses
(or cheddar)
- Salsa
1. Put a layer of chips on a big platter.
2. Cover with some cheese.
3. Then as much chili as you want.
4. Then more cheese!
5. Microwave for about 2 and a half minutes.
6. Dollop some salsa on.
7. munchmunchmunch
NOTE: I hate sour cream. I mean, I don't really HATE it, because I don't actually hate anything, but I don't like it. If you like it, you can put some on too with the salsa. And also, you can use any kind of chili. Vegetarian, turkey, bean, beef, whatever. It doesn't even have to be canned. :]
+ ew. school tomorrow!
Friday, April 11, 2008
I'm hanging up now.
Ask me anything about Ketamine.
I dare you.
I've just spent forever researching it, so if there's anything you EVER want to know about it, just ask me.
Seriously.
I'd give you an overview, but I'm a little busy right now. I have to finish my Biology homework, but I promise I'll post an in depth, enlightening overview for you in my Livejournal.
In other news, I've discored a noise I can make with my fingers. it's very hollow sounding and it makes me giddy because it's new to me. I'll show you if you ask, but you probably won't find it as exciting as I do.
P.S.
this is my 60th post on What She Said. Cool!
I dare you.
I've just spent forever researching it, so if there's anything you EVER want to know about it, just ask me.
Seriously.
I'd give you an overview, but I'm a little busy right now. I have to finish my Biology homework, but I promise I'll post an in depth, enlightening overview for you in my Livejournal.
In other news, I've discored a noise I can make with my fingers. it's very hollow sounding and it makes me giddy because it's new to me. I'll show you if you ask, but you probably won't find it as exciting as I do.
P.S.
this is my 60th post on What She Said. Cool!
Thursday, April 10, 2008
This is an intervention.
I saw a cool movie tonight at the DeFrank. It was called Beautiful Boxer and it was about a Muaythai boxer who was a transvestite. Based on a true story.
We googled pictures of the real boxer after wards.
Blogger doesn't really like pictures so you won't be able to see it if I post it, but I'll put this on my LJ so you can see the whole thing if you want.
Then we took a stroll across the street to Chipotle. who was giving out free burritos. and now my uncle's here for dinner.
Best day ever?
no. but pretty close.
We googled pictures of the real boxer after wards.
Blogger doesn't really like pictures so you won't be able to see it if I post it, but I'll put this on my LJ so you can see the whole thing if you want.
Then we took a stroll across the street to Chipotle. who was giving out free burritos. and now my uncle's here for dinner.
Best day ever?
no. but pretty close.
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
The List.
I discover some cool websites.
www.instructables.com
www.threadbanger.com
www.stylemob.com
and that was just today.
I think I'll keep updating this post.
keep track of all the websites I'll love for a week and then forget about if I don't post 'em.
www.instructables.com
www.threadbanger.com
www.stylemob.com
and that was just today.
I think I'll keep updating this post.
keep track of all the websites I'll love for a week and then forget about if I don't post 'em.
Bananas.
I'm sick of dealing with procrastinators and I'm sick of feeling sorry for people.
First off, let me say I want to be a comedian.
A while ago I posted a blog about trying to be more funny and now I'm totally getting serious about it.
Some people laugh at things I say but that's probably because they think I'm dumb or something.
I'm going to make jokes. and I'm going to make jokes for a living. And I'll tour the world telling jokes in english and I'll be famous and the people in ukraine who don't even speak english will come to my performances anyways because i'm faamous. And I'll be off the hook for being funny that one night in Ukraine because that's a waste of jokes if nobody can understand them.
But at least i'll get to go to Ukraine, which is cool.
still waiting for those clothes to work on, gentlemen.
Read my blog from a few days ago, it explains what I'll be doing with them.
First off, let me say I want to be a comedian.
A while ago I posted a blog about trying to be more funny and now I'm totally getting serious about it.
Some people laugh at things I say but that's probably because they think I'm dumb or something.
I'm going to make jokes. and I'm going to make jokes for a living. And I'll tour the world telling jokes in english and I'll be famous and the people in ukraine who don't even speak english will come to my performances anyways because i'm faamous. And I'll be off the hook for being funny that one night in Ukraine because that's a waste of jokes if nobody can understand them.
But at least i'll get to go to Ukraine, which is cool.
still waiting for those clothes to work on, gentlemen.
Read my blog from a few days ago, it explains what I'll be doing with them.
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Shhh.
Please participate.
Click the picture to learn more about it, and ask me if you have any questions.
We're trying to make the day of silence really good at our school.
But unless you participate...it really won't work.
Saturday, April 5, 2008
Wanted:
Any boys reading my blog?
If you have old clothes that still fit you, but you don't like them anymore, give them to me so I can revamp them and I'll give them back.
first five are free. Then they'll be like 5 bucks.
The only reason I'll be charging is because I have to but buttons and pabric paint and stuff.
But basically, I want to work on menswear.
So if you don't like what I come up with after I have worked on it, it's okay, because you didn't really like it in the first place anyways, right?
(that's why you gave it to me)
So comment this blog, text me, call me, myspace me, do whatever if you want me to revamp your clothes.
Thanks. =]
If you have old clothes that still fit you, but you don't like them anymore, give them to me so I can revamp them and I'll give them back.
first five are free. Then they'll be like 5 bucks.
The only reason I'll be charging is because I have to but buttons and pabric paint and stuff.
But basically, I want to work on menswear.
So if you don't like what I come up with after I have worked on it, it's okay, because you didn't really like it in the first place anyways, right?
(that's why you gave it to me)
So comment this blog, text me, call me, myspace me, do whatever if you want me to revamp your clothes.
Thanks. =]
Thursday, April 3, 2008
You can have it all
I think it's weird when people who aren't really my friends know my name.
I thought I was the only person who observed names, but sometimes some random kid in my english class says my name and I go "huh? how do you know my name?" and I think I offend them.
This has happened with Armeen and Edwin.
Lauren Webber read my blog the other day. I don't quite remember, but she may have asked me to mention her again. So I'm mentioning Lauren Webber. Today she made a sign that said 3 on it because our algebra teacher just WOULDN'T LISTEN. So she held it up and waved it around and our teacher got the message.
GSA summit tonight. I don't want to be the only one from my school again, but I will be. It's tre unfortunate. My GSA is a bunch of trou du cul's. That means asshole in french. but they actually aren't assholes. They just can't make it to the defrank.
I wish Oaf was a girl.
I thought I was the only person who observed names, but sometimes some random kid in my english class says my name and I go "huh? how do you know my name?" and I think I offend them.
This has happened with Armeen and Edwin.
Lauren Webber read my blog the other day. I don't quite remember, but she may have asked me to mention her again. So I'm mentioning Lauren Webber. Today she made a sign that said 3 on it because our algebra teacher just WOULDN'T LISTEN. So she held it up and waved it around and our teacher got the message.
GSA summit tonight. I don't want to be the only one from my school again, but I will be. It's tre unfortunate. My GSA is a bunch of trou du cul's. That means asshole in french. but they actually aren't assholes. They just can't make it to the defrank.
I wish Oaf was a girl.
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